I can't belive it. It's fucking wussy.
But I hate the feeling when I've tried my best and it still fails.
I think this job is not for me.
I'm going to throw in the letter very soon...
and I swear I'm never turning back to this line again.
No matter how much I try, how much I do, it always fails.
IT ALWAYS FAILS.
Everything will go on well in the beginning, then it all crashes to the floor when the stress hits.
It may sound damm weak;
but I seriously cannot take stress.
I can give an excellent piece of work, distinction even, if you don't stress me.
But the moment I feel stressed out, you can assure that everything is going to fly out of the window.
THIS IS ONE OF MY BIGGEST WEAKNESS.
And I've painstakingly, painfully, utterly agonizingly realized it over the past year.
I HATE stressful jobs.
I CANNOT TAKE stressful jobs.
Go ahead, mock me. Laugh...
I'm gone already.
I"ve lost all confidence in myself.
I've lost every last vestige and facet of confidence.
Everytime I do something correct, it only amounts up to a critical point in time when it will all fail again..
I"m sick and tired of this vicious cycle.
NO matter how much preperation I do, it fails.
NO MATTER HOW MUCH WORK AND EFFORT I PUT IN IT FAILS!!!!!!!
why the fuck do I even bother?
do you know how sick and tired I am?
*cries*
